i was totally bamboozled today! iwas walking through broadmarsh browsing away when a sales man called Moses ( i know right?) came to me and made my nails really shiny, he called me pretty and i coughed up a load of dough... the moral of the story is- he called me pretty right?
And my nails are shiny, and skin smooth as koleys bum. Amazing.
xxxx
Wednesday, 17 December 2008
Tuesday, 16 December 2008
Saturday, 6 December 2008
i feel like
such a shit person. I feel like a crap mum, and just an all round fucking loser... lol its always about me isnt it.
We;re spending £30 on gas a week to keep us warm ( twce a day) and its just depressing me now, cause its like, either we eat or we're warm theres no happy medium and its making me feel down. I went upstairs a moment ago- to check on Kole, whos poorly again, no doubt down to this freezing fucking house, and his hands were freezing, as if he'd been outside, i feel like a horrible mum, how could i bring a baby into the world and not even keep hiim warm? Its disgusting.
I want to work to prove im not a scummy little girl who goes out getting pregnant and producing offspring that i cant afford to keep; but i feel right now i'm only hurting myself to prove a point to people who dont really care and will think what they want to think anyway- it works out im £40 better off... but if you include extra childcare costs, busfare and council tax, it works out we're just the same now and i dont see my boy- i do however get that hes benefiting from nursery so that i dont mind tbh, but i just feel like whats the point? why am i trying? I;m only hurting the ones i love for my ego. Which is pathetic.
I'm such a whiney little bitch.
Sorry x
We;re spending £30 on gas a week to keep us warm ( twce a day) and its just depressing me now, cause its like, either we eat or we're warm theres no happy medium and its making me feel down. I went upstairs a moment ago- to check on Kole, whos poorly again, no doubt down to this freezing fucking house, and his hands were freezing, as if he'd been outside, i feel like a horrible mum, how could i bring a baby into the world and not even keep hiim warm? Its disgusting.
I want to work to prove im not a scummy little girl who goes out getting pregnant and producing offspring that i cant afford to keep; but i feel right now i'm only hurting myself to prove a point to people who dont really care and will think what they want to think anyway- it works out im £40 better off... but if you include extra childcare costs, busfare and council tax, it works out we're just the same now and i dont see my boy- i do however get that hes benefiting from nursery so that i dont mind tbh, but i just feel like whats the point? why am i trying? I;m only hurting the ones i love for my ego. Which is pathetic.
I'm such a whiney little bitch.
Sorry x
Thursday, 4 December 2008
paperchaseee
heey
well i am exhausted- i feel like a right cop out i only did four hours!... gosh. but to be fair i had a really shitty nights sleep- i was tossing and turning all night for lord knows what reasons- i wanted to sleep so badly, and when the beautiful sleep came to me i had to be awake- the son of a bitch. was horrid.
but yeah works quite good i really quite enjoyed myself! so heres my day - 7:30 am, awake, get myself ready, kieron got kole ready for which i will be eternally grateful, 8:15- got the bus to clifton, 9:00am got kole settled in nursery ( which he loves - he didnt even care i was gone! boo.) got to work at 10:00 am, and was putting stock out all day, which wasnt even that bad i quite liked it, you sort of do your job and talk to eachother aswell, so yeah.
it was nice to speak to another person who would actually speak back...with words and no dribble- even though when my shift finished i was the first one out to the bus to pick koley up, i did miss the little guy!
so yeh, my day in a nutshell.... and ive lost kieron for a couple of days to dead space. yay!
Taters!
x
well i am exhausted- i feel like a right cop out i only did four hours!... gosh. but to be fair i had a really shitty nights sleep- i was tossing and turning all night for lord knows what reasons- i wanted to sleep so badly, and when the beautiful sleep came to me i had to be awake- the son of a bitch. was horrid.
but yeah works quite good i really quite enjoyed myself! so heres my day - 7:30 am, awake, get myself ready, kieron got kole ready for which i will be eternally grateful, 8:15- got the bus to clifton, 9:00am got kole settled in nursery ( which he loves - he didnt even care i was gone! boo.) got to work at 10:00 am, and was putting stock out all day, which wasnt even that bad i quite liked it, you sort of do your job and talk to eachother aswell, so yeah.
it was nice to speak to another person who would actually speak back...with words and no dribble- even though when my shift finished i was the first one out to the bus to pick koley up, i did miss the little guy!
so yeh, my day in a nutshell.... and ive lost kieron for a couple of days to dead space. yay!
Taters!
x
Wednesday, 3 December 2008
does anyone
ever feel, kind of repulsive? cba to go into it just know i felt it earlier.
i start work tomorrow:D
and koley has nursery on tuesday and he loved it :D i watched the whole time he was there and he just loved it, he was painting and dribbling and laughing the whole time, it was brilliant, wish i could do that every time lol, but alas i actually have to leave him with other people tomorrow for my first day.
this is quite funny just literally happened, kieron read the top bit over my shoulder this is how it went
Kieron: aWwW why did you feel like that?
Me: Not sure, just looked in the mirror and thought erugh my face has nothing going for it
...
Kieron: What? sorry i wasnt listening.
i found it funny lol, so im going to dob on him- hes watching star trek the next generation- and liking it.
well im off now, i am a boring sod arent i
and kelly sorry for making you barf...twice!
Amiesizzle.
i start work tomorrow:D
and koley has nursery on tuesday and he loved it :D i watched the whole time he was there and he just loved it, he was painting and dribbling and laughing the whole time, it was brilliant, wish i could do that every time lol, but alas i actually have to leave him with other people tomorrow for my first day.
this is quite funny just literally happened, kieron read the top bit over my shoulder this is how it went
Kieron: aWwW why did you feel like that?
Me: Not sure, just looked in the mirror and thought erugh my face has nothing going for it
...
Kieron: What? sorry i wasnt listening.
i found it funny lol, so im going to dob on him- hes watching star trek the next generation- and liking it.
well im off now, i am a boring sod arent i
and kelly sorry for making you barf...twice!
Amiesizzle.
Thursday, 27 November 2008
lala, a week of crap for you to digest
errm last friday was a really emotional day- we;ve not been sleeping for nearly 2 weeks now, so to get out and view koles new nursery ( which is lovely btw) was a huge achievement for me- all on my onesome! ... so having got myself ready ( i/e not walking out of the house in my pjs) and getting the baby read ( pretty muhc the same) i arrived at my bus stop- needing this bus not to be late- my fault proably for poor preperation, but yes, i waited and waited, and when it arrived, some faggoty rotting old bitches wouldnt even move... and i swear they had legs! the bus driver got out of his seat and turned around to look at these witches and i heard one of them say " im not fucking moving"... yeah i admit i cried a tiny bit. i was gutted- i sat there thinking i would move for osmeone i really would so why could they not? i really lost my faith in people then. it was so harsh, i mean it was cold and i have a baby with me right?... still i waited for the next bus and forgot about it, but i was so seriously gutted, it was horrible :( ...
i start at paper chase on the 9th yay...
we had to take kole to an all hours place on tuesday, it was horrible- hes got a chest infection and needs an inhaler, which we werent to shocked at as both me and kieron suffered quite badly with asthma* as children, but it was still like... :(
now, this is strange all week i've kind of thought " oo this can go in my blog" but i seruously cant remember very much..stupid me!
tatty bye x
i start at paper chase on the 9th yay...
we had to take kole to an all hours place on tuesday, it was horrible- hes got a chest infection and needs an inhaler, which we werent to shocked at as both me and kieron suffered quite badly with asthma* as children, but it was still like... :(
now, this is strange all week i've kind of thought " oo this can go in my blog" but i seruously cant remember very much..stupid me!
tatty bye x
Wednesday, 19 November 2008
Never been happier.
Weell,
I have been offered a job with a company called Paperchase- who actually- not biased here- sell quite awesome products. I'm a bit of a nerd you see. i adore stationary- when i was little i would spend my pocket money on a pack of biros? or a notepad.. seriosuly. haha, so nerdy.
so yeah basically i wanted a job so old people can kiss my arse really- i mean i am a great mum, im still with my babies dad ( shocking!) hes a great dad, we share the load, ad now i can honestly say im going to be paying my own bills- just me :D ha so ner.
right,must go get some cereal and leave the lapentop fo kiwizlle hes got work to do
bye x
I have been offered a job with a company called Paperchase- who actually- not biased here- sell quite awesome products. I'm a bit of a nerd you see. i adore stationary- when i was little i would spend my pocket money on a pack of biros? or a notepad.. seriosuly. haha, so nerdy.
so yeah basically i wanted a job so old people can kiss my arse really- i mean i am a great mum, im still with my babies dad ( shocking!) hes a great dad, we share the load, ad now i can honestly say im going to be paying my own bills- just me :D ha so ner.
right,must go get some cereal and leave the lapentop fo kiwizlle hes got work to do
bye x
Friday, 7 November 2008
Thursday, 6 November 2008
Blah
i,
dont really have anything to say, unless this unravels a bit more?
I got the job, yay. :\ eeerm i want to get a proper job, but it needs to be permanent, my it kitchens a MESS, in having a party on saturday and i dont really want too... dammit. eerm, i dont know what to do for tea, we had chicken last night...and is it childish to still not really want veg when i can just have chips?.. didnt think so. Oh yeah i look pregnant... but i can thankfully say i am not with child, nothings on tv, my eyes hurt- i want to go to bed but i think i should clean up first...Oh and Koleys asleep, bless his heart... he has a sore bottom:( poor child.
Love.
Love.
Love
dont really have anything to say, unless this unravels a bit more?
I got the job, yay. :\ eeerm i want to get a proper job, but it needs to be permanent, my it kitchens a MESS, in having a party on saturday and i dont really want too... dammit. eerm, i dont know what to do for tea, we had chicken last night...and is it childish to still not really want veg when i can just have chips?.. didnt think so. Oh yeah i look pregnant... but i can thankfully say i am not with child, nothings on tv, my eyes hurt- i want to go to bed but i think i should clean up first...Oh and Koleys asleep, bless his heart... he has a sore bottom:( poor child.
Love.
Love.
Love
Thursday, 30 October 2008
Thursday
Boop Boop Be Do...
Well, we had THE worst night in the bloody world last night- Kole was up more then 6 times- all night, so there was me last night- luckily i had fallen asleep with the laptop by i would say approximately 9pm- cause after midnight, i think the devil was having a bit of a break and asked Kole to step in for him for a little while!
So we slept in til about half 10! Ouch.
On other news i think i'll just cancel my interview for tomorrow- There no way in hell im leaving my 5 1/2 month old teething devilchild with my little brother lol, its nice he would though! Bless him- must get him something nice for Christmas!
You know what i'd like to do? ...Usher has influenced me- i want to make love in the club- kieron!?... He wont... we heard a story about someone who did, ended up badly, but i like the idea of doing it and it not ending badly? ..haha or in pregnancy! I WAS feeling really broody the other day, thought better of it obviously... but it would be lovely:D If it was hard work i'd pop babies out every 9 months:D... iwant 7! two boys, then wait,. then two more, then wait, and then- you got it two... then a few years later a girl:D
i need help.
x
Well, we had THE worst night in the bloody world last night- Kole was up more then 6 times- all night, so there was me last night- luckily i had fallen asleep with the laptop by i would say approximately 9pm- cause after midnight, i think the devil was having a bit of a break and asked Kole to step in for him for a little while!
So we slept in til about half 10! Ouch.
On other news i think i'll just cancel my interview for tomorrow- There no way in hell im leaving my 5 1/2 month old teething devilchild with my little brother lol, its nice he would though! Bless him- must get him something nice for Christmas!
You know what i'd like to do? ...Usher has influenced me- i want to make love in the club- kieron!?... He wont... we heard a story about someone who did, ended up badly, but i like the idea of doing it and it not ending badly? ..haha or in pregnancy! I WAS feeling really broody the other day, thought better of it obviously... but it would be lovely:D If it was hard work i'd pop babies out every 9 months:D... iwant 7! two boys, then wait,. then two more, then wait, and then- you got it two... then a few years later a girl:D
i need help.
x
Wednesday, 29 October 2008
Meh
Iya,
I am well tired!.. Yet though Koleys asleep- Kierons at a party called WOW( nerds will get it, cool people will wonder why they werent invited) i'm online, browsing facebook, for no actual reason, no one i particularly can be arsed to converse with is online, and i cant be bothered anyway.
I've got an interview on Friday yipee.. now i have to find childcare- my mum suggested my little brother and his gf- even though theyre 16, i fail to see the logic in this- my brothers a DWEEB. A lovely lad but seriously, what if he gets upset and doesnt know what to do? FUCK THAT FOR A BAG OF CHIPS. or am i being a bit over cautious? I'm not really sure. Damn gamecity, damn it to HECK.
Also, what is it with shithead spiders? they are the work of the devil, all 8 legs, and those ugly little eyes, and you know those big ass ones where you can see there teeth thingy? YUCK, and to say i'm actually bigger then them- they dont give a crap... seriously- im sure when they notice you've spotted them they do NOT sit there petrified, they stare you out, saying WHAT BITCH, the whole time.
bored now,
x
I am well tired!.. Yet though Koleys asleep- Kierons at a party called WOW( nerds will get it, cool people will wonder why they werent invited) i'm online, browsing facebook, for no actual reason, no one i particularly can be arsed to converse with is online, and i cant be bothered anyway.
I've got an interview on Friday yipee.. now i have to find childcare- my mum suggested my little brother and his gf- even though theyre 16, i fail to see the logic in this- my brothers a DWEEB. A lovely lad but seriously, what if he gets upset and doesnt know what to do? FUCK THAT FOR A BAG OF CHIPS. or am i being a bit over cautious? I'm not really sure. Damn gamecity, damn it to HECK.
Also, what is it with shithead spiders? they are the work of the devil, all 8 legs, and those ugly little eyes, and you know those big ass ones where you can see there teeth thingy? YUCK, and to say i'm actually bigger then them- they dont give a crap... seriously- im sure when they notice you've spotted them they do NOT sit there petrified, they stare you out, saying WHAT BITCH, the whole time.
bored now,
x
Tuesday, 28 October 2008
Saturday, 25 October 2008
Saturday:D
Is a fun day for me; i get to see my friend Kirsty- who is one of the only people who's met my son and actually continues to see me! shes a real friend:)...also Koles godmother to be:)
Anyway Kole is blowing bubbles at me and when i say yeah, he smiles and does it more...also when i say " is that right"... its fun
Think im going to cook spaghetti and meatballs tonight.... wonder if kieron will eat it ...THE GAY!
Errm, nothing to say really- i have a headache and im looking forward to XFACTOR. How sad.
Toodlepip x
Anyway Kole is blowing bubbles at me and when i say yeah, he smiles and does it more...also when i say " is that right"... its fun
Think im going to cook spaghetti and meatballs tonight.... wonder if kieron will eat it ...THE GAY!
Errm, nothing to say really- i have a headache and im looking forward to XFACTOR. How sad.
Toodlepip x
Friday, 24 October 2008
SWIMMERS
HIYA,
i took Kole swimming today! GO ME! it was fun, but i am very tired.. he didnt cry until we got out!
Woo.
I love my baby, yup yup i love my boys
xx
i took Kole swimming today! GO ME! it was fun, but i am very tired.. he didnt cry until we got out!
Woo.
I love my baby, yup yup i love my boys
xx
Thursday, 23 October 2008
Rawr 3 followers baby yeah!
Helllooo good sir!
I really need to stop watching Jeremy Kyle, its SHITE- tell a lie, right now it's hilarious! There is this skinny little guy- wearing a vest no less, GET ME IM AN MC. ( i wouldnt wear a vest as a guy if i was a skinny little girl), hes crying, calling his girlfriend names, saying she sits on her arse all day; also he does everything around the house... and hes a drug addict... oh yeah by the way hes crying. Like a girl. Haha- hes called Kev aswell.
Meh i dont know why i'm talking about that actually, i'm just a bit bored, i really need a hobby; what can i do thats really cool...apart from playing with colours on here.
We;ve decided that if Kole shows us he's tired we're going to put him in his cot, Kieron does most of this, i'm a wimp i find it quite hard to let him cry, but i'm also sick of having to pick him up all the time when i know hes just tired, its honestly one of the best things we've done so far. We've come to the conclusion he'll relapse and cry for another hour and a half before falling asleep, but atm its working out really well! Which is why i must toddle off.. our kitchens a tip!...
tata!
I really need to stop watching Jeremy Kyle, its SHITE- tell a lie, right now it's hilarious! There is this skinny little guy- wearing a vest no less, GET ME IM AN MC. ( i wouldnt wear a vest as a guy if i was a skinny little girl), hes crying, calling his girlfriend names, saying she sits on her arse all day; also he does everything around the house... and hes a drug addict... oh yeah by the way hes crying. Like a girl. Haha- hes called Kev aswell.
Meh i dont know why i'm talking about that actually, i'm just a bit bored, i really need a hobby; what can i do thats really cool...apart from playing with colours on here.
We;ve decided that if Kole shows us he's tired we're going to put him in his cot, Kieron does most of this, i'm a wimp i find it quite hard to let him cry, but i'm also sick of having to pick him up all the time when i know hes just tired, its honestly one of the best things we've done so far. We've come to the conclusion he'll relapse and cry for another hour and a half before falling asleep, but atm its working out really well! Which is why i must toddle off.. our kitchens a tip!...
tata!
Wednesday, 22 October 2008
Kerry Katona.
Hey,
I admit i am a victim of daytime TV, and i watched GMTV this morning, and i completely certian that KERRY KATONA was drunk; ha.
She does my head in " oo i stopped doing drugs 5 years ago"... isn't your oldest child about 8?...Twat.
Ohh, i need to mention; KOLES BEEN EVIL, so have i, & Kieron is the best partener and father of ..ever; honestly.
He took over the whole of last night and wouldnt let me do a thing it was brilliant; you may already know Kole hasnt been sleeping, so neither have we; so i am extremely grateful to my amazing babydaddy :P haha.
So grateful infact i'm pretty darn tempted to never marry him!
Off to eat my cornflakes at 2 in the afternooon
BYESEBYES. x.
I admit i am a victim of daytime TV, and i watched GMTV this morning, and i completely certian that KERRY KATONA was drunk; ha.
She does my head in " oo i stopped doing drugs 5 years ago"... isn't your oldest child about 8?...Twat.
Ohh, i need to mention; KOLES BEEN EVIL, so have i, & Kieron is the best partener and father of ..ever; honestly.
He took over the whole of last night and wouldnt let me do a thing it was brilliant; you may already know Kole hasnt been sleeping, so neither have we; so i am extremely grateful to my amazing babydaddy :P haha.
So grateful infact i'm pretty darn tempted to never marry him!
Off to eat my cornflakes at 2 in the afternooon
BYESEBYES. x.
Monday, 20 October 2008
just tired out.
i am exhausted; this is moan rather than a post. I am just so tired, my arm muscles ache, my tummy aches ( boo poor me) i dont know wether to eat anything cause i just feel so crap.
worlds smallest violin better be playing for me right now, or im going to complain about that too.
bye.
adding too- hey you know those morbid people who have had friends who have died (not funny) but they put the name of their friend on their msn, like RIP UNCLE GEORGE...
Just want to say, i hate it.
Grrr!
worlds smallest violin better be playing for me right now, or im going to complain about that too.
bye.
adding too- hey you know those morbid people who have had friends who have died (not funny) but they put the name of their friend on their msn, like RIP UNCLE GEORGE...
Just want to say, i hate it.
Grrr!
Saturday, 18 October 2008
BREASTS!
Right, i have decided MR GOVERNMENT.!
That to encourage breast feeding in new mothers, you should set up a scheme!
FREE BREAST:
REDUCTIONS
LIFTS
AUGMENTATIONS (no idea what this is but i think if we want one we should be getting one yes?)
ENLARGMENTS
for breastfeeding for 6 months, because not only does pregnancy destroy our once pert breasts, breastfeeding just completely and utterly KILLS THEM. and its just really not fair.
PUT YOUR MONEY WHERE YOU MOUTH IS
you want to make us feel bad for not breast feeding * which i by the way did, so i should be top priority for this!* we will if you give us BRAND SPANKING NEW, boobies.
Also my son is so adorable hes in bed and hes teething, grown men cant take it the way my handsome little man can.
IN YOUR FACE.
Toodlepip x
That to encourage breast feeding in new mothers, you should set up a scheme!
FREE BREAST:
REDUCTIONS
LIFTS
AUGMENTATIONS (no idea what this is but i think if we want one we should be getting one yes?)
ENLARGMENTS
for breastfeeding for 6 months, because not only does pregnancy destroy our once pert breasts, breastfeeding just completely and utterly KILLS THEM. and its just really not fair.
PUT YOUR MONEY WHERE YOU MOUTH IS
you want to make us feel bad for not breast feeding * which i by the way did, so i should be top priority for this!* we will if you give us BRAND SPANKING NEW, boobies.
Also my son is so adorable hes in bed and hes teething, grown men cant take it the way my handsome little man can.
IN YOUR FACE.
Toodlepip x
Wednesday, 15 October 2008
Kieron has broken blogger LAW
Right. I dont care what this heathen says... you cannot post more then once a day! It's unchristian! ... Know why? It's unwritten. And i dont care if you disagree...
Also, he COPIED my previous post... just take a sneaky peek!!
I wont have much to say until after i have posted this- in which case i will put it tomorrow, or forget to post it and will post and equally boring post tomorrOw. IN ANY CASE
KIERON IS A LIAR WITH SMELLY MORNING BREATH!
ToodlePOP x
Also, he COPIED my previous post... just take a sneaky peek!!
I wont have much to say until after i have posted this- in which case i will put it tomorrow, or forget to post it and will post and equally boring post tomorrOw. IN ANY CASE
KIERON IS A LIAR WITH SMELLY MORNING BREATH!
ToodlePOP x
Tuesday, 14 October 2008
Ok...
My profiles been viewed a staggering 4 times... i admit it, i refreshed the page.
I need a hobby, i am so boring.
Kole's been giggling away today; do all babies like being thrown in the air or is it just my lovely crazy son? I hope its just Kole...Other peoples kids are weird.
Koles sleeping so I'm going to make the most of that by cooking tea for 6:15... by cook i mean take the salmon out of the oven, swish the broccli about and mess around with some meatballs..actual meatballs- i really messed up dinner tonight, i have nothing to put with salmon; so i put pretty much everything i could thing of as a meal... I can't have K starve!... I can however give him a really mismatched dinner.
Toodles.
I need a hobby, i am so boring.
Kole's been giggling away today; do all babies like being thrown in the air or is it just my lovely crazy son? I hope its just Kole...Other peoples kids are weird.
Koles sleeping so I'm going to make the most of that by cooking tea for 6:15... by cook i mean take the salmon out of the oven, swish the broccli about and mess around with some meatballs..actual meatballs- i really messed up dinner tonight, i have nothing to put with salmon; so i put pretty much everything i could thing of as a meal... I can't have K starve!... I can however give him a really mismatched dinner.
Toodles.
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